Billy + Love = Impossible

Looking by my side the marital mistake I've made is clear.
I can't understand my own decisions to be with her.
Why can't I just let us both be happy?
Because I know I'm broken.
Even if I can't fix it.
I need her.
I do.
-B

Some days he's in good mental state and will speak to me.
I can tell that he needs love and peace to heal.
No one is willing to give it to him.
I certainly repulse him.
Shouldn't waste time.
What a mistake.
Us together.
-V

Married is just a title for Billy & Valencia.

Valencia and Billy's marriage is strange to me because it is so unhappy on both sides. Maybe she isn't as dumb as I think of her to be but she definitely can't be happy with a husband that doesn't give her attention. How could they have wanted this? It makes me wonder if they've ever been in love or if they just knew that the chances of someone else wanting to marry them were slim so they jumped at the chance. It is a sad marriage to read about and I'm sorry for the both of them to be in it. So little love. I think that this entire novel has so little love. I didn't expect it to be a romance novel in the first place, but the way Billy's marriage is presented just makes love seem so cheap. Like it can be bought by a stolen ring and that it will last in an environment that wants to smother it (such as Billy making no attempt to find something to love about Valencia). Yes, Billy had no love growing up as a child (considering his father just threw him into a pool and almost pushed him over the edge of a canyon) and the things he went through in war had toughened him emotionally. Although a character that doesn't even appreciate life enough to live it when he survives the war and so many die is just an uninteresting character because he has nothing more to offer to the world with an attitude like Billy's. He finds someone who might actually love him for who he is and what little he has to give, but he marries her because he figures that he'll never get anyone better and that her financial status will be good too. Its pretty repulsive that Billy did this to Valencia. She wasn't really described more in the novel, besides being overweight and somewhat ditsy, and it was my understanding that she had low hopes of marrying anyone else as well, so she accepted Billy's offer for that and because she may have actually loved him. She even said she'd lose weight for him and he just dismissed that. I felt so bad for her, the way that she was proposed to was pathetic and careless, when it came to choosing their china Billy didn't put any opinion into it but agreed with her on everything. Billy never really made the effort in their marriage, I think Valencia deserved better. He didn't seem to mourn for long after Valencia's death and that is upsetting because she was so distressed about his being in the hospital that she died on her way to visit him. Those actions of Billy's really make him a lower character in my eyes.